baby chub.

why is it that chub on babies is just so cute? when you get my age though, there is nothing cute about it. i always wanted a chubby baby. i just love the rolls, despite having to meticulously clean and lotion them during/after every bath. today i put c in a long sleeve outfit w/ a onesie underneath. i couldn't pass up the opportunity to get a pic. i love the chub.

 

Relax.

ultimate relaxation.

it's my goal for the year. while driving somewhere the other day, i was listening to klove. instead of doing a new year's resolution, they were encouraging people to choose one word to "live up to" in 2011. ask my husband - i stress over alot. not sure why. i love schedules, to-do lists, planning, etc. i think i could schedule out my whole day if permitted. it wears matt out. since having a kid, however, my schedule has become...more of a routine some days and other days, just a "well, we'll just see what happens!" 

c's on a schedule. i'm not one of those moms who doesn't feed her child when she's hungry because it's not time yet or makes her stay in bed screaming when she's not tired. i do love though knowing that in 3 hours she's going to eat again, stay awake for a bit and then take a nap. most days now, it goes something like that. other days, like today, it doesn't. and for that, i get stressed.

when we first brought her home, i stressed just because i was a new mom. what was i to do with this living, breathing, beautiful child that relied on me for everything? one that screamed half the day until i cut out all dairy in my diet and started her on probiotics (thank you, KS!). then i stressed over if she was getting enough to eat. then i stressed because i had to go back to work. then i stressed because she needed a formula supplement (after stressing over i couldn't provide all the nutrition she needed) and she went through several before finally taking one. 

i stress when the dogs bark, when company comes over late or when the trash runs at 5 am because i'm afraid they'll wake up c when she's sleeping. and of course i stress over the usual things - what to cook for dinner, if i even have time to cook dinner, going to the store, being home by a certain time when i'm out to feed my kid, spending time with my hubby, exercising, drinking enough water, starting bedtime routine on time, still having a job in a few years, being a good mom and wife, raising a child to love Jesus and the list goes on and on...

but amongst all my stressing, there are those moments that allow me to breathe... like when my husband wrapped his arms around me in the kitchen earlier today. or the few hours i spent playing with c and watching her roll from back to tummy for the first time (twice now that the video camera was nowhere near and she wouldn't repeat it). or just before putting her to bed, holding her close as she presses her cheek against mine while singing "Jesus loves the little children" to her. these are the moments i cherish. 

so, in 2011, my goal is to relax. to quit getting so stressed out when my schedule doesn't go as planned. all in all to trust God and rely on Him quite a bit more. the one verse i have quoted over and over again as of late..."Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6,7 

off to breathe... 

my lil' punkin luv at 1 mo.

it all finally melted today.

grandmas.

so this morning i was wondering what i was going to write about today. i then took this picture and my mind flooded with so many memories...c is one lucky girl. in addition to having us as parents and one awesome family and lots of friends, she gets to spend every weekday with her grandma. mom worked to put us through Christian school, so we went to our babysitter's house every day.  both my grandmas worked too so we saw them in the evening or on weekends. my grandma cobb took mom and me shopping just about every Saturday. we went to eat breakfast at the same place and visited the same few stores.  she was the grandma that bought practical stuff for Christmas, cooked pinto beans and cornbread every Sunday and fed the kids and men before herself. she passed away in 2004. my grandma sisson was an independent woman; very opinionated and proud of her figure even well into her 70s. she was an incredible baker. chocolate chip cookies and rolls were her specialties, as well as strawberry pie, chocolate pie, and the list goes on and on. while in college, she would send me a note ever so often and enclose $10 to buy cheese breadsticks. she passed away my senior year. after she died, i sat in the college library one day studying. needing a break, i was going through my bag and came across one of her notes... 

it brought tears to my eyes and made me smile. i knew it was a note from heaven. she was ok. she was with our Jesus and she wanted to let me know. i miss my grandmas. it makes me sad too that c never had a chance to meet either of them. c's grandma is the only biological one she has. grandmother keaton passed away in 1999, so neither c nor i ever had the opportunity to meet her. so, i dedicate this one to you, mom - my friend, my confidant, my nanny...grandma. c, honey, you're one lucky girl. 


p.s. c rolled over from tummy to back today. twice. by the time we got out the video camera, she had had enough and wouldn't do it again. maybe tomorrow.

finally.

so, i've finally arrived.  facebook - cancelled.  myspace - who knows. blogging - i'll give it a try.  after reading my sis-in-law's this evening, i laughed so hard i almost cried and then thought to myself - "i can do this."  we'll see how it goes.  

life with a 5 mo old these days is amazing.  c tried out her jenny jump up this p.m.  it almost fits her although her height is perfect for a sample tasting of the fabric.  she seemed to enjoy it for a mere moment.   Post Options